~ SOM3 OF TH3 BAD TIM3S ~

THIS ON3 INCIDENT THAT HAPPEN IN MY HOUSE WAS ME AND MY MOTHER GOT INTO A REAL BAD ARGUMENT AND SHE WAS JUST CURSING AND SCREAMING AT ME AND I DON'T LIKE WHEN PEOPLE SCREAM AT ME. SO I STARTED DISRESPECTING HER AND SHE STARTED CRYING AND SHE PUT ME OUT AND TOLD ME TO NEVER COME BACK. SO I PACKED ALL MY THINGS AND I HAD LEFT AND WENT TO MY GOD FATHER'S HOUSE. AND I TOLD HIM WHAT HAD HAPPEN AND HE SDAID I COULD STAY THEIR UNTIL THINGS WERE OKAY AT HOME.I WAS VERY UPSET BUT I WAS MAD AT MYSELF AT THE SAME TIME BECAUSE I THOUGHT TO MYSELF WHY WOULD I CURSE MY MOTHER OUT LIKE THAT SO I WAS THERE FOR A LITTLE MINUTE AND THEN MY MOTHER SAID I COULD COME HOME. BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO BECAUSE I FELT JUST THAT BAD BUT THEN I THOUGHT ABOUT ALL THE SACRAFICE'S MY MOTHER WENT THROUGH TO HAVE ME.AND HOW SHE REALLY DIDN'T HAVE TO HAVE ME SHE COULD HAVE JUST GOT ME ABORTED BUT SHE DIDN'T SHE MUST HAVE LOVED ME SHE TELL'S ME THAT ALLL THE TIME. BUT ME BEING THE THAT I AM I REALLY DON'T PAY HER NO MIND BUT WENT THAT HAPPEN I KNEW SHE WAS TELLING THE TRUTH BECAUSE SOMETIMES I USE TO THINK THAT SHE WAS A BAD MOTHER BECAUSE OF THE THING'S SHE DID BUT THEN I STARTED TO THINK I WAS A BAD DAUGHTER. BECAUSE OF ALL THE THING'S I PUT HER THROUGH AND I STILL HAVE NOT CHANGED MY WAYS AT ALL SO SOMETHING I THOUGHT WAS BAD REALLY TURNED OUT TO BE GOOD I MANAGE TO UNDERSTAND HER AND SEE WHAT SHE GOES THROUGH WITH ME AS HER DAUGHTER AND I LOVE HER UNCONDITIONALLY FOR THAT

~ GOALS AND CHANGES~

I HAVE MANY GOALS AND CHANGES FOR THE SECOND SEMESTER LIKE FOR ONE I PLAN ON GOING TO ALL MY CLASSES ON TIME AND BEING PREPARED AND STOP BEING IN THE HALLAYS BECAUSE THE HALLWAYS ARE NOT GOING TO GET ME NO WHERE BUT TO DETENTION OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. AND ANOTHERR THING I NEED TO DO IS TO ATOP GETTING SMART MOURH WITH TEACHERS BECAUSE THEY ARE ONLY TRYING TO HELP ME AND I THINK I DO NEED THEIR SUPPORT ON CERTAIN THINGS AND IF I JUST SO HAPPEN I NEED A LITTLE EXTRA POINT IN THEIR CLASS THEY CAN GIVE ME A LITTLE BOOST BECAUSE THEY SEE THAT I HAVE BEEN TRYIN VERY HARD IN THEIR CLASS. AND I ALSO NEED TO WORK ON GOING TO FIRST PERIOD ON TIME BECAUSE THAT'S THE MAIN CLASS THAT I KEEP ON FAILING

~ MY WINT3R BR3AK~

MY WINT3R BR3AK WAS OK MOST OF MY BR3AK I WAS SITTIN IN TH3 HOUS3 GOING OVER COLL3G3 APPLICATION AND THINKING ABOUT HOW I WAS GOING TO CAHNGE OVER THE YEAR. AND MOSTLY THINKING ABOUT SCHOOL AND HOW I SHOULD GO TO ALL MY CLASS3S AND STOP DITCHING B3CAUS3 MY T3ACH3RS ARE ONLY TRYIN TO H3LP M3. MY N3W Y3ARS R3VOLUTION IS TO T3LL TH3 TRUTH AND TO BE MORE OP3N ABOUT MY D3CISIONS AND WHAT I DO

~ 0n3 THING I LIK3 ABOUT MYS3LF IS........~

ON3 THAT I LIKE ABOUT MY SELF IS MY STRENGHT AND DET3RMINATION B3CAUSE I F33L THAT I MAK3 GOOD D3CISION GOOD OR BAD AND I THINK I HAVE THE STR3NGHT TO ACCEPT THE DECISION THAT I MAK3 AND STILL FEEL FOOD ABOUT MY S3LF AND WHAT I DID WITHOUT FEELING BAD ABOUT IT BUT I HON3STLY LOOK AT MY SELF AS AN PHENOMENAL WOMAN WELL NOT WOMAN CUZ IM NOT GROWN YET BUT I LOOK AT MY SELF AS PHENOMENAL

~ ON3 THING I LOV3 ABOUT CHICAGO IS ............

ON3 THING I LOV3 ABOUT CHICAGO IS TH3 FASHION BECAUSE CHICAGO TO ME HAS A GOOD FASHION TO ME BECAUSE IT'S SO BRIGHT CRAZY AND DIFF3R3NT AND IT MUST B3 SOM3THING GOOD B3CAUS3 P3OPL3 OFT3N HAV3 TH3 T3ND3NCY TO COPY OFF OUR SWAGG3R AND TH3 BOYS IN CHICAGO DR3SS NIC3 TO AND IF YOU REALLY LOOK AT IT OTH3R CITI3S DON'T HAV3 THAT MUCH FASHION S3NS3 BUT CHICAGO W3 GOT IT B3CAUS3 W3 THINK OF STUFF FROM OFF TH3 TOP OF TH3 DOM3 AND IT'S ALWAYS INT3R3STING AND CR3ATIV3 TO M3

~ ULTIMAT3 DRIVING 3XP3RIENCE~

ONCE UPON A TIME I WAS DRIVING IN MY 1967 OLDSMOBILE CUTLASS SUPREME I HAD SWUNG BY AND SCOOPED UP MY BUDDY MARILYN MONROE WE WEREN'T TO UP TO DATE ABOUT WERE WE WERE GOING WE JUST KNEW THAT WE WANTED TO GO TO A PLACE NEITHER OF EVER BEEN BEFORE BUT MARILYN SHE HAD BEEN ALL OVER AMERICA SO WERE EVER WE WENT IT WOULDN'T B NO SUPRISE TO HER . SIO WE PUT THE PEDAL TO THE MEDAL AND DROVE OUT BOTH OF US WITH OUR SHADES ON AND THE WIND BLOWING THROUGH OUR HAIR. AS WE WERE DRIVING MARILYN TURNED ON SOME TUNES IN THE CAR AND SHE WAS SAYING HOW SHE ALWAYS WANTED TO GO TO CHICAGO AND ALL OF A SUDDEN I GOT SORT OF EMOTIONAL BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN HOME IN AGE'S TO SEE MY FAMILY IN CHICAGO. SO I ASKE4D HER IF SHE WAS SURE ABOUT GOING SHE WIPED THE TEARS OF MY CHEEK AND SAID YES I HESITATED A LITTLE BIT AND THEN WE BEGAN OUR JOURNEY TO THAT OLD PLACE I USE TO CALL HOME. WE HAD A BLAST WHILE WE WERE DRIVING THEIR WE WENT TO A COUPLE OF BAR'S I WASN'T A DRINKER BUT MARILYN THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUN SO WE DID IT AS WE WALKED IN THE BARS ALL THE ATTENTION WAS ON US I MEAN I WASN'T BAD LOOKING BUT MARILYN WAS GORGEOUS SHE HAD THIS BLONDE SPARKLING HAIR AND SHE WAS VERY INTELLIGENT YOU KNOW HOW THEY SAY BLONDE'S ARE DUMB NOT HER SHE WAS ONE OF THE SMART ONE'S WE ENDED UP IN CHICAGO AND THE FIRST PLACE I TOOK MARILYN TO WAS GIORDANO'S PIZZA LIKE I PLANNED SHE FEEL IN LOVE WITH THE PLACE AND THEN I TOOK HER TO AN WHITE SOXS GAME NEITHER OF US KNEW ANYTHING ABOUT THE SPORT BUT WE HAD FUN SO THAT'S WHAT REALLY MATTER THE MOST THEN WE WENT ON A TOUR OF DOWN TOWN CHICAGO OF THE MANY PALCE' TO EXPLORE SHE WAS HEAD OVER HILL'S IN LOVE WITH NAVY PIER SHE SAID IT BOUGHT BACK MEMORIES OF HER BEING A KID WE LAUGHED ALL NITE LONG WE NEVER STOPPED SMILING WE HAD A BLAST WE LAUGHED OURSELF ALL THE WAY BACK HOME AS WE WERE LEAVING MARILYN ASKED IF I WAS GOING TO SEE MY MOTHER I DROOPED A TEAR AND SHOOK MY HEAD IN SORROW AND SAID NO SHE ASKED ME DID I WANNA TALK ABOUT IT AND I SAID NO AND SHE GAVE ME SOME POP CORN WE GOT FROM GARRETT'S POPCORN WHILE WE WERE DOWN TOWN AND I LAUGHED CAUSE THAT WAS THE ONLYT THING THAT MADE ME LAUGH AND WE WENT HOME AND MADE A ALBUM CALLED TIARA N MARILYN TRIP TO THE WINDY CITY

~ TH3 BRAV3ST THING I 3V3R DID WAS...............

I WOULD HAVE TO SAY THAT THE BRAVEST THING I EVER DONE WAS WALKING AWAY FROM A FIGHT WITH MY MOTHER BECAUSE AN INCIDENT HAD HAPPEN THAT I HAD LIED ABOUT AND ME AND MY WHOLE ENTIRE FAMILY GOT IN TO THIS BIG ARGUMENT AND I HATE WHEN PEOPLE YELL AT ME THAT MAKE'S ME SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MAD SO MY MOTHER GOT IN MY FACE AND STARTED TO YELL IN MY FACE I DON'T KNOW BUT SOMETHING CAME OVER ME AND MY HAND WAS FORMING IN TO A FIST AND I WAS ABOUT TO HIT HER BUT THEN I THOUGHT ABOUT IT LIKE IF I HIT MY MOMMA WHAT TYPE OF PERSON WOULD THAT MAKE ME THEN I WOULD HAVE TO LIVE WITH THAT GUILTY CONSCIOUS AND THAT I DIDN'T WANT AND PLUS MY MOMMA WOULDN'T LOOK AT ME AS THE SAME PERSON I WAS BEFORE SO WE JUST CONTINUED TO ARGUE AND THEN FINALLY I JUST PACKED MY THINGS AND WENT TO MY DADDY HOUSE ARROUND THE CORNER AND I STAYED THEIR UNTIL THINGS CALMED DOWN BUT I FELT GOOD ABOUT WALKING AWAY FROM IT I FELT LIKE THAT WAS THE ADULT THING TO DO BECAUSE FIGHTING NEVER SOLVES ANYTHING THAT'S WHAT MY MOMMA ALWAYS TELL ME