~ TH3 ONLY THING I CAN B IS M3 ~

~HOW TO CUR3 A BROK3N H3ART ~

BREAKING UP IS NOT ALWAYS EASY SOME PEOPLE TAKE IT HARDER THAN OTHER'S DO BUT THAT'S LIFE EVERYTHING DOESN'T ALWAYS GO YOUR WAY. BUT THEN AGAIN YOU HAVE TO THINK ABOUT IT LIKE NOTHING LAST FOREVER AND SOMETIMES YOU FEEL AS THOUGH THAT'S THE ONLY PERSON FOR YOU BUT REALLY IT'S NOT YOU MIGHT GO OUT AND FIND YOU SOMEBODY THAT WAS WAY BETTER THAN HIM\HER AND YOU WILL BE HAPPY AGAIN. BUT SOMETHING I HAD TO R3ALIZE IS THAT W3 CRY OVER TH3S3 PEOPLE THAT W3 ARE SO MUCH IN LOV3 WITH BUT THIRTY Y3ARS FROM NOW W3 ARE NOT GOING TO R3M3MB3R TH3IR LAST NAM3. BUT YOU HAVE TO DO WHAT MAKE'S YOU HAPPY AND DO WAT'S B3ST FOR YOU AND IF THAT M3AANS MOVING ON TH3N DO SO. BUT ON3 INCID3NT I WAS IN I WAS GOING WIT THIS BOY AND W3 WERE IN LOV3 AND W3 HAD BROK3 UP MAN DIFF3R3NT TIM3'S. BUT W3 HAD ALWAYS GOTT3N BACK TOG3TH3R BUT W3 HAD BROK3 UP AGAIN AND W3 GOT IN TO THIS R3AL BIG ARGUM3NT. AND W3 W3R3 R3ALLY MAD AT 3ACH OTH3R AND I THOUGHT TO MY S3LF THIS IS IT W3 AR3 NOT G3TTIN BACK TOG3TH3R. BUT I DIDN'T WANT IT TO B3 LIK3 THAT I WANT3D TO STILL B3 WITH HIM BUT TH3N MY MOTH3R TOLD M3 TO R3ALIZ3 DO I R3ALLY WANT TO B3 WITH HIM AND TH3N I THOUGHT ABOUT IT. TH3N I CAME TO MY CONCLUSION LIK3 NAW I DON'T N33D HIM AND ONC3 I STOP PAYIN HIM ATT3NTION AND STUFF H3 GOT KINDA MAD AND START3D QU3STIONONG M3 ABOUT STUFF.BUT LONG STORY SHORT I GOT OV3R IT AND NOW MY H3ART THAT WAS ONC3 BROK3N IS NOW CUR3D AGAIN

~ SOM3 OF TH3 BAD TIM3S ~

THIS ON3 INCIDENT THAT HAPPEN IN MY HOUSE WAS ME AND MY MOTHER GOT INTO A REAL BAD ARGUMENT AND SHE WAS JUST CURSING AND SCREAMING AT ME AND I DON'T LIKE WHEN PEOPLE SCREAM AT ME. SO I STARTED DISRESPECTING HER AND SHE STARTED CRYING AND SHE PUT ME OUT AND TOLD ME TO NEVER COME BACK. SO I PACKED ALL MY THINGS AND I HAD LEFT AND WENT TO MY GOD FATHER'S HOUSE. AND I TOLD HIM WHAT HAD HAPPEN AND HE SDAID I COULD STAY THEIR UNTIL THINGS WERE OKAY AT HOME.I WAS VERY UPSET BUT I WAS MAD AT MYSELF AT THE SAME TIME BECAUSE I THOUGHT TO MYSELF WHY WOULD I CURSE MY MOTHER OUT LIKE THAT SO I WAS THERE FOR A LITTLE MINUTE AND THEN MY MOTHER SAID I COULD COME HOME. BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO BECAUSE I FELT JUST THAT BAD BUT THEN I THOUGHT ABOUT ALL THE SACRAFICE'S MY MOTHER WENT THROUGH TO HAVE ME.AND HOW SHE REALLY DIDN'T HAVE TO HAVE ME SHE COULD HAVE JUST GOT ME ABORTED BUT SHE DIDN'T SHE MUST HAVE LOVED ME SHE TELL'S ME THAT ALLL THE TIME. BUT ME BEING THE THAT I AM I REALLY DON'T PAY HER NO MIND BUT WENT THAT HAPPEN I KNEW SHE WAS TELLING THE TRUTH BECAUSE SOMETIMES I USE TO THINK THAT SHE WAS A BAD MOTHER BECAUSE OF THE THING'S SHE DID BUT THEN I STARTED TO THINK I WAS A BAD DAUGHTER. BECAUSE OF ALL THE THING'S I PUT HER THROUGH AND I STILL HAVE NOT CHANGED MY WAYS AT ALL SO SOMETHING I THOUGHT WAS BAD REALLY TURNED OUT TO BE GOOD I MANAGE TO UNDERSTAND HER AND SEE WHAT SHE GOES THROUGH WITH ME AS HER DAUGHTER AND I LOVE HER UNCONDITIONALLY FOR THAT

~ GOALS AND CHANGES~

I HAVE MANY GOALS AND CHANGES FOR THE SECOND SEMESTER LIKE FOR ONE I PLAN ON GOING TO ALL MY CLASSES ON TIME AND BEING PREPARED AND STOP BEING IN THE HALLAYS BECAUSE THE HALLWAYS ARE NOT GOING TO GET ME NO WHERE BUT TO DETENTION OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. AND ANOTHERR THING I NEED TO DO IS TO ATOP GETTING SMART MOURH WITH TEACHERS BECAUSE THEY ARE ONLY TRYING TO HELP ME AND I THINK I DO NEED THEIR SUPPORT ON CERTAIN THINGS AND IF I JUST SO HAPPEN I NEED A LITTLE EXTRA POINT IN THEIR CLASS THEY CAN GIVE ME A LITTLE BOOST BECAUSE THEY SEE THAT I HAVE BEEN TRYIN VERY HARD IN THEIR CLASS. AND I ALSO NEED TO WORK ON GOING TO FIRST PERIOD ON TIME BECAUSE THAT'S THE MAIN CLASS THAT I KEEP ON FAILING

~ MY WINT3R BR3AK~

MY WINT3R BR3AK WAS OK MOST OF MY BR3AK I WAS SITTIN IN TH3 HOUS3 GOING OVER COLL3G3 APPLICATION AND THINKING ABOUT HOW I WAS GOING TO CAHNGE OVER THE YEAR. AND MOSTLY THINKING ABOUT SCHOOL AND HOW I SHOULD GO TO ALL MY CLASS3S AND STOP DITCHING B3CAUS3 MY T3ACH3RS ARE ONLY TRYIN TO H3LP M3. MY N3W Y3ARS R3VOLUTION IS TO T3LL TH3 TRUTH AND TO BE MORE OP3N ABOUT MY D3CISIONS AND WHAT I DO