<3 TATTOO MADNESS<3

WEN I GOT MY FIRST TATTOO I THOUGH IT WAS GOING TO HURT BUT IT WAS A SIMPLE TATTOO BUT EVERYBODY ALWAYS MAKES A BIG DEAL OUT OF TATTOO THEY REALLY DNT HURT AS BAD AS PEOPLE MAKE THEM OUT TO BE I PLAN ON GETTIN MANY MORE TATTOO BUT IN PLACES IN WHICH THEY CAN'T B SEEN BECAUSE THAT'S NOT PROFESSIONAL IN THE BUSINESS WORLD

THE LIFE OF A PROM QU33N

SHE STANDS THERE WITH THE REST OF HER OPPONETS HANDS SWEATIN HEART JUMPIN AND ALL OF THE ABOVE NUMEROUS THOUGHT RACE THROUGH HER MIND BUT NONE REALLY MATTER THE ONLY THOUGHT THAT IS REALLY STUCK IN HER MIND IS DID SHE WIN. I STND THER IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DRAKE HOTEL WAITING ANXIOUSLY TO HEAR THE RESULTS OF THE COMPEITION THAT I HAVE BEEN COMPEITING FOR ALL YEAR LONG. MS TIKACHET CALL OUT THE PROM KING FIRST."ANTONIO HAMB" EVERYONE CHEERS AS SHE PLACES HIS CROWN UPON HIS HEAD AND EVVERYONE BEGANS O SNAP THEIR PICS OF HIM . NOW THE PROM QUEEN " TIARA CRENSHAW" OMG MY HEART DROPPED OUTSIDE I WAS JUSS ALL SMILES AND WAVES BUT ON THE INSIDE I WAS JUMPIN FOR JOY LIKE YES! YES! I DID IT AS WE TOOK OUR PICS TOGETHER EVERYONE JUSS WAVIN AND SMILING AT US THE CROWD LOVED US....... I WAS SO HAPPY THAT I WON

~WHO KNOWS M3 B3ST ~

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I WOULD HAVE TO SAY THAT THE PERSON WHO KNOWS ME BEST IS MY BEST FRIEND K3NISHA B3CAUS3 I T3LL H3R ALMOST EVERYTHING THAT GOES ON IN MY LIF3. SHE KNOW MORE ABOUT ME THAN MY 0WN MOTHER DOES AND I THINK THATS THE CRAZY PART ABOUT EVERYTHING . LIKE SHE KNOWS WHAT TYPE OF PERSON THAT I AM AND SHE KNOWS WHAT TYP3 OF STUFF I WOULD SAY AND WHAT TYP3 OF STUFF THAT I WOULD NOT SAY. SO I WOULD SAY SHE KNOWS ME BEST WHEN I SAY EVERYTHING I M3AN EVERYTHING BUT SOMETIMES I LEAVE STUFF OUT BECAUSE SOMETIMES I FEEL LIK3 I TELL H3R TO MUCH THEN I THINK ABOUT AND I GO T33LL H3R AND THEN SHE WOULD ASK ME LIKE WHEN THIS WAS AND I WOULD TELL THEN SHE WOULD GET KIND OF MAD AT ME THEN SHE WOULD SAY IM NOT HER BEST FRIEND NO MORE AND MY OTHER BEST FRIEND MEGAN SHE ALWAYS KNOW WHAT I AM ABOUT TO DO BEFORE I EVEN ATTEMT TO DO IT

~TH3 M3AN3ST THING 3V3R DON3 TO A SUB~

I THINK I WAS IN LIK3 FOURTH OR FIFTH GRAD3 AND MY T3ACH3R WAS ABS3NT OR WAT3V3R. AND W3 WAS JUST DOING WHAT KID'S ALWAYS DO WH3N TH3R3 IS A SUB GOOFIN OFF AND HAVING FUN BUT THE SUB WAS M3AN AND SH3 K3PT L3AVING OUT OUR CLASS.TALKING ON H3R PHON3 AND I K3PT ASKING H3R Y SH3 K3PT L3AVING OUT OR WAT3V3R AND SH3 SAID SH3 HAD TO TAK3 SUM IMPORTANT CALL'S AND SH3 TOOK US TO LUNCH AND WAT3V3R AND W3 CAM3 BACK TO CLASS SO. TH3 NXT DAY OUR T3ACH3R WAS BACK AND TH3 SUBSTITUT3 HAD CAM3 BACK UP YO OUR SCHOOL WITH TH3 POLIC3 AND SH3 SAID SOM3BODY IN OUR CLASS HAD STOL3N 200$ FROM H3R AND I WAS LIK3 DAAAAAAANG D3Y BOGUS. AND SH3 SAID IT WAS THIS BOY IN OUR CLASS NAM3 D3SHAWN B3CAUS3 HIM AND HIS SIST3R CAM3 TO WITH SOM3 N3W SHO3S AND H3 WAS AROUND H3R PURS3 THAT WAS SO BOGUS

~ TH3 ONLY THING I CAN B IS M3 ~

~HOW TO CUR3 A BROK3N H3ART ~

BREAKING UP IS NOT ALWAYS EASY SOME PEOPLE TAKE IT HARDER THAN OTHER'S DO BUT THAT'S LIFE EVERYTHING DOESN'T ALWAYS GO YOUR WAY. BUT THEN AGAIN YOU HAVE TO THINK ABOUT IT LIKE NOTHING LAST FOREVER AND SOMETIMES YOU FEEL AS THOUGH THAT'S THE ONLY PERSON FOR YOU BUT REALLY IT'S NOT YOU MIGHT GO OUT AND FIND YOU SOMEBODY THAT WAS WAY BETTER THAN HIM\HER AND YOU WILL BE HAPPY AGAIN. BUT SOMETHING I HAD TO R3ALIZE IS THAT W3 CRY OVER TH3S3 PEOPLE THAT W3 ARE SO MUCH IN LOV3 WITH BUT THIRTY Y3ARS FROM NOW W3 ARE NOT GOING TO R3M3MB3R TH3IR LAST NAM3. BUT YOU HAVE TO DO WHAT MAKE'S YOU HAPPY AND DO WAT'S B3ST FOR YOU AND IF THAT M3AANS MOVING ON TH3N DO SO. BUT ON3 INCID3NT I WAS IN I WAS GOING WIT THIS BOY AND W3 WERE IN LOV3 AND W3 HAD BROK3 UP MAN DIFF3R3NT TIM3'S. BUT W3 HAD ALWAYS GOTT3N BACK TOG3TH3R BUT W3 HAD BROK3 UP AGAIN AND W3 GOT IN TO THIS R3AL BIG ARGUM3NT. AND W3 W3R3 R3ALLY MAD AT 3ACH OTH3R AND I THOUGHT TO MY S3LF THIS IS IT W3 AR3 NOT G3TTIN BACK TOG3TH3R. BUT I DIDN'T WANT IT TO B3 LIK3 THAT I WANT3D TO STILL B3 WITH HIM BUT TH3N MY MOTH3R TOLD M3 TO R3ALIZ3 DO I R3ALLY WANT TO B3 WITH HIM AND TH3N I THOUGHT ABOUT IT. TH3N I CAME TO MY CONCLUSION LIK3 NAW I DON'T N33D HIM AND ONC3 I STOP PAYIN HIM ATT3NTION AND STUFF H3 GOT KINDA MAD AND START3D QU3STIONONG M3 ABOUT STUFF.BUT LONG STORY SHORT I GOT OV3R IT AND NOW MY H3ART THAT WAS ONC3 BROK3N IS NOW CUR3D AGAIN

~ SOM3 OF TH3 BAD TIM3S ~

THIS ON3 INCIDENT THAT HAPPEN IN MY HOUSE WAS ME AND MY MOTHER GOT INTO A REAL BAD ARGUMENT AND SHE WAS JUST CURSING AND SCREAMING AT ME AND I DON'T LIKE WHEN PEOPLE SCREAM AT ME. SO I STARTED DISRESPECTING HER AND SHE STARTED CRYING AND SHE PUT ME OUT AND TOLD ME TO NEVER COME BACK. SO I PACKED ALL MY THINGS AND I HAD LEFT AND WENT TO MY GOD FATHER'S HOUSE. AND I TOLD HIM WHAT HAD HAPPEN AND HE SDAID I COULD STAY THEIR UNTIL THINGS WERE OKAY AT HOME.I WAS VERY UPSET BUT I WAS MAD AT MYSELF AT THE SAME TIME BECAUSE I THOUGHT TO MYSELF WHY WOULD I CURSE MY MOTHER OUT LIKE THAT SO I WAS THERE FOR A LITTLE MINUTE AND THEN MY MOTHER SAID I COULD COME HOME. BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO BECAUSE I FELT JUST THAT BAD BUT THEN I THOUGHT ABOUT ALL THE SACRAFICE'S MY MOTHER WENT THROUGH TO HAVE ME.AND HOW SHE REALLY DIDN'T HAVE TO HAVE ME SHE COULD HAVE JUST GOT ME ABORTED BUT SHE DIDN'T SHE MUST HAVE LOVED ME SHE TELL'S ME THAT ALLL THE TIME. BUT ME BEING THE THAT I AM I REALLY DON'T PAY HER NO MIND BUT WENT THAT HAPPEN I KNEW SHE WAS TELLING THE TRUTH BECAUSE SOMETIMES I USE TO THINK THAT SHE WAS A BAD MOTHER BECAUSE OF THE THING'S SHE DID BUT THEN I STARTED TO THINK I WAS A BAD DAUGHTER. BECAUSE OF ALL THE THING'S I PUT HER THROUGH AND I STILL HAVE NOT CHANGED MY WAYS AT ALL SO SOMETHING I THOUGHT WAS BAD REALLY TURNED OUT TO BE GOOD I MANAGE TO UNDERSTAND HER AND SEE WHAT SHE GOES THROUGH WITH ME AS HER DAUGHTER AND I LOVE HER UNCONDITIONALLY FOR THAT

~ GOALS AND CHANGES~

I HAVE MANY GOALS AND CHANGES FOR THE SECOND SEMESTER LIKE FOR ONE I PLAN ON GOING TO ALL MY CLASSES ON TIME AND BEING PREPARED AND STOP BEING IN THE HALLAYS BECAUSE THE HALLWAYS ARE NOT GOING TO GET ME NO WHERE BUT TO DETENTION OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. AND ANOTHERR THING I NEED TO DO IS TO ATOP GETTING SMART MOURH WITH TEACHERS BECAUSE THEY ARE ONLY TRYING TO HELP ME AND I THINK I DO NEED THEIR SUPPORT ON CERTAIN THINGS AND IF I JUST SO HAPPEN I NEED A LITTLE EXTRA POINT IN THEIR CLASS THEY CAN GIVE ME A LITTLE BOOST BECAUSE THEY SEE THAT I HAVE BEEN TRYIN VERY HARD IN THEIR CLASS. AND I ALSO NEED TO WORK ON GOING TO FIRST PERIOD ON TIME BECAUSE THAT'S THE MAIN CLASS THAT I KEEP ON FAILING

~ MY WINT3R BR3AK~

MY WINT3R BR3AK WAS OK MOST OF MY BR3AK I WAS SITTIN IN TH3 HOUS3 GOING OVER COLL3G3 APPLICATION AND THINKING ABOUT HOW I WAS GOING TO CAHNGE OVER THE YEAR. AND MOSTLY THINKING ABOUT SCHOOL AND HOW I SHOULD GO TO ALL MY CLASS3S AND STOP DITCHING B3CAUS3 MY T3ACH3RS ARE ONLY TRYIN TO H3LP M3. MY N3W Y3ARS R3VOLUTION IS TO T3LL TH3 TRUTH AND TO BE MORE OP3N ABOUT MY D3CISIONS AND WHAT I DO

~ 0n3 THING I LIK3 ABOUT MYS3LF IS........~

ON3 THAT I LIKE ABOUT MY SELF IS MY STRENGHT AND DET3RMINATION B3CAUSE I F33L THAT I MAK3 GOOD D3CISION GOOD OR BAD AND I THINK I HAVE THE STR3NGHT TO ACCEPT THE DECISION THAT I MAK3 AND STILL FEEL FOOD ABOUT MY S3LF AND WHAT I DID WITHOUT FEELING BAD ABOUT IT BUT I HON3STLY LOOK AT MY SELF AS AN PHENOMENAL WOMAN WELL NOT WOMAN CUZ IM NOT GROWN YET BUT I LOOK AT MY SELF AS PHENOMENAL

~ ON3 THING I LOV3 ABOUT CHICAGO IS ............

ON3 THING I LOV3 ABOUT CHICAGO IS TH3 FASHION BECAUSE CHICAGO TO ME HAS A GOOD FASHION TO ME BECAUSE IT'S SO BRIGHT CRAZY AND DIFF3R3NT AND IT MUST B3 SOM3THING GOOD B3CAUS3 P3OPL3 OFT3N HAV3 TH3 T3ND3NCY TO COPY OFF OUR SWAGG3R AND TH3 BOYS IN CHICAGO DR3SS NIC3 TO AND IF YOU REALLY LOOK AT IT OTH3R CITI3S DON'T HAV3 THAT MUCH FASHION S3NS3 BUT CHICAGO W3 GOT IT B3CAUS3 W3 THINK OF STUFF FROM OFF TH3 TOP OF TH3 DOM3 AND IT'S ALWAYS INT3R3STING AND CR3ATIV3 TO M3

~ ULTIMAT3 DRIVING 3XP3RIENCE~

ONCE UPON A TIME I WAS DRIVING IN MY 1967 OLDSMOBILE CUTLASS SUPREME I HAD SWUNG BY AND SCOOPED UP MY BUDDY MARILYN MONROE WE WEREN'T TO UP TO DATE ABOUT WERE WE WERE GOING WE JUST KNEW THAT WE WANTED TO GO TO A PLACE NEITHER OF EVER BEEN BEFORE BUT MARILYN SHE HAD BEEN ALL OVER AMERICA SO WERE EVER WE WENT IT WOULDN'T B NO SUPRISE TO HER . SIO WE PUT THE PEDAL TO THE MEDAL AND DROVE OUT BOTH OF US WITH OUR SHADES ON AND THE WIND BLOWING THROUGH OUR HAIR. AS WE WERE DRIVING MARILYN TURNED ON SOME TUNES IN THE CAR AND SHE WAS SAYING HOW SHE ALWAYS WANTED TO GO TO CHICAGO AND ALL OF A SUDDEN I GOT SORT OF EMOTIONAL BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN HOME IN AGE'S TO SEE MY FAMILY IN CHICAGO. SO I ASKE4D HER IF SHE WAS SURE ABOUT GOING SHE WIPED THE TEARS OF MY CHEEK AND SAID YES I HESITATED A LITTLE BIT AND THEN WE BEGAN OUR JOURNEY TO THAT OLD PLACE I USE TO CALL HOME. WE HAD A BLAST WHILE WE WERE DRIVING THEIR WE WENT TO A COUPLE OF BAR'S I WASN'T A DRINKER BUT MARILYN THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUN SO WE DID IT AS WE WALKED IN THE BARS ALL THE ATTENTION WAS ON US I MEAN I WASN'T BAD LOOKING BUT MARILYN WAS GORGEOUS SHE HAD THIS BLONDE SPARKLING HAIR AND SHE WAS VERY INTELLIGENT YOU KNOW HOW THEY SAY BLONDE'S ARE DUMB NOT HER SHE WAS ONE OF THE SMART ONE'S WE ENDED UP IN CHICAGO AND THE FIRST PLACE I TOOK MARILYN TO WAS GIORDANO'S PIZZA LIKE I PLANNED SHE FEEL IN LOVE WITH THE PLACE AND THEN I TOOK HER TO AN WHITE SOXS GAME NEITHER OF US KNEW ANYTHING ABOUT THE SPORT BUT WE HAD FUN SO THAT'S WHAT REALLY MATTER THE MOST THEN WE WENT ON A TOUR OF DOWN TOWN CHICAGO OF THE MANY PALCE' TO EXPLORE SHE WAS HEAD OVER HILL'S IN LOVE WITH NAVY PIER SHE SAID IT BOUGHT BACK MEMORIES OF HER BEING A KID WE LAUGHED ALL NITE LONG WE NEVER STOPPED SMILING WE HAD A BLAST WE LAUGHED OURSELF ALL THE WAY BACK HOME AS WE WERE LEAVING MARILYN ASKED IF I WAS GOING TO SEE MY MOTHER I DROOPED A TEAR AND SHOOK MY HEAD IN SORROW AND SAID NO SHE ASKED ME DID I WANNA TALK ABOUT IT AND I SAID NO AND SHE GAVE ME SOME POP CORN WE GOT FROM GARRETT'S POPCORN WHILE WE WERE DOWN TOWN AND I LAUGHED CAUSE THAT WAS THE ONLYT THING THAT MADE ME LAUGH AND WE WENT HOME AND MADE A ALBUM CALLED TIARA N MARILYN TRIP TO THE WINDY CITY

~ TH3 BRAV3ST THING I 3V3R DID WAS...............

I WOULD HAVE TO SAY THAT THE BRAVEST THING I EVER DONE WAS WALKING AWAY FROM A FIGHT WITH MY MOTHER BECAUSE AN INCIDENT HAD HAPPEN THAT I HAD LIED ABOUT AND ME AND MY WHOLE ENTIRE FAMILY GOT IN TO THIS BIG ARGUMENT AND I HATE WHEN PEOPLE YELL AT ME THAT MAKE'S ME SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MAD SO MY MOTHER GOT IN MY FACE AND STARTED TO YELL IN MY FACE I DON'T KNOW BUT SOMETHING CAME OVER ME AND MY HAND WAS FORMING IN TO A FIST AND I WAS ABOUT TO HIT HER BUT THEN I THOUGHT ABOUT IT LIKE IF I HIT MY MOMMA WHAT TYPE OF PERSON WOULD THAT MAKE ME THEN I WOULD HAVE TO LIVE WITH THAT GUILTY CONSCIOUS AND THAT I DIDN'T WANT AND PLUS MY MOMMA WOULDN'T LOOK AT ME AS THE SAME PERSON I WAS BEFORE SO WE JUST CONTINUED TO ARGUE AND THEN FINALLY I JUST PACKED MY THINGS AND WENT TO MY DADDY HOUSE ARROUND THE CORNER AND I STAYED THEIR UNTIL THINGS CALMED DOWN BUT I FELT GOOD ABOUT WALKING AWAY FROM IT I FELT LIKE THAT WAS THE ADULT THING TO DO BECAUSE FIGHTING NEVER SOLVES ANYTHING THAT'S WHAT MY MOMMA ALWAYS TELL ME

~SOM3THING NOT V3RY MANY P3OPL3 KNOW ABOUT M3 IS........

SOM3THING THAT P3OPL3 DON'T KNO ABOUT M3 IS THAT I'M AFRAID TO FALL IN LOV3 OR YOU COULD SAY THAT I'M AFRAID OF COMMITM3NT B3CAUS3 ALL TH3 PAST R3ALTIONSHIP'S THAT I HAV3 B33N IN HAV3N'T B33N GOING SO W3LL AND IT'S ALWAYS B33N SORT OF A LOSING SITUATION B3CAUS3 W3N U AR3 IN A R3LATIONSHIP YOU WANT THING'S TO GO SMOOTH AND M3LLOW BUT W3N TH3Y GO TH3 OPPOSIT3 WAY OF WHAT YOU WANT3D YOU START HAVING S3COND THOUGHTS ABOUT THING'S . I DON'T KNOW MAYB3 THAT'S JUST M3 B3CAUS3 I F33L SOM3 BOY'S AR3N'T UP TO MY STANDARDS IN R3LATIONSHIP WIS3 . AND THAT SOM3TIM3S CR3AT3S T3NSION IN OUR R3LATIONSHIP AND OFT3N 3NDS . BUT WH3N I DO FIND A BOY WHO IS ON TH3 SAM3 PAG3 AS M3 I SORT OF SHUT DOWN B3CAUS3 I G3T AFRAID OF WHAT MIGHT HAPP3N OR TH3 F3AR OF M3 G3TTING MY F33LING 'S HURT OR MY H3ART BROK3N

~ TH3 WORST THING A PAR3NT CAN DO............

TH3 WORST THING THAT A PAR3NT COULD DO TO AN CHILD IS GIV3 UP ON TH3M B3CAUS3. CHILDR3N MAKE MISTAK3S AND IT'S OUR PAR3NT'S WHO AR3 SUPPOS3 TO B3 TH3R3 AND T3LL US THAT IT'S GOING TO B3 OKAY AND THAT MISTAK3S HAPP3N BUT IF OUR PAR3NT'S AR3 NOT TH3R3 TH3N WHO CAN W3 RUN TO. B3CAUS3 US CHILDR3N RUN TO OUR PAR3NT'S FOR 3V3RY LITTL3 THING AND IF TH3IR NOT TH3R3 FOR US W3 F33L SORT OF LOST . B3CAUS3 W3 LOOK TO OUR PAR3NT'S FOR GUIDANC3 AND WISDOM AND STUFF LIK3 THAT SO THAT IT CAN K33P US GOING . BUT SOM3TIM3'S PAR3NT FAC3 C3RTAIN OBSTACLE'S WITH US T33NAG3R SUCH AS SCHOOL , TH3 OPPOSIT3 S3X, P33R PR3SSUR3, 3TC . AND TH3Y SOM3TIM3S F33L OV3RWH3LM3D AND F33L LIK3 SOM3TIM3S US KIDS DON'T APPR3CIAT3 OUR PAR3NT'S BUT IN R3ALITY W3 DO AND WH3N TH3Y GIV3 UP ON US OUR H3ART AR3 SORT OF CRUSH3D IN A WAY B3CAUS3 AR3 PAR3NT'S NO LONG3R CAR3 FOR US AND TH3Y DON'T CAR3 FOR US ANY MOR3 AND TO US CHILDR3N THAT'S HARD TO IMAGIN3 AND TO M3 THAT'S TH3 WORST THING A PAR3NT CAN DO IS GIV3 UP ON TH3IR CHILD

Something that irritates me...

Genearlly things don't bug me, but it drives me crazy when people be in my business. I feel it's kind of odd that people have nothing else tbetter to do than to mind other epople's business. I feel people should get a life of their own and stop worrying about others. I know they wouldn't like for someone else to be in their business. You have to treat people like you wanted to be treated and if you don't want people to be in your business then don't be in theirs.